It is so fucking painful.


I miss you so much, yet I have to pretend I'm fine.
Cause I know the amount of stress in your life right now.
Just hope you know I am not any better. My work is slowly and surely killing me.
& then there's you.. or us. I just cannot be alright without you.

I love you so much, yet I can't meet you when you're dying to meet me cause I have to fulfill your intentions.
You were so determined to break up with me, and after that you were motivated to live your life to the fullest.
I really can't afford to screw your life up again.
& honestly, it fucking hurts on my side.

I am hoping that you can forgive me, forget my mistakes and give me another chance
cause true love definitely exists between us. 
I am willing to wait for as long as fate permits me to
If i do get the chance I won't fuck things up anymore, I will be so good to you
I will learn from my mistakes.
But if we don't, you will be the most beautiful regret in my life.